we have all heard it said before, how we need to live each day as if it were the last. but, if you really stop and think about it, it really is true. how much different would i live my life if i knew when my time was coming? how would i change my priorities? what would i do different? would i take a little more time to "smell the roses?" would i try a little harder to not get so angry? would i become that friend that everyone wants to have? a friend that will always be there and will always help you, no matter what? what would i really do?
currently, i am single. but, looking back on my relationship, what would i have done different? what would i have done that could maybe have changed the outcome of that relationship? looking back, there are a couple of things i know i would have done, however, it is too late for that now.
looking back on my life, i see my mistakes and my shortcomings. hindsight is 20/20, and so i gaze upon my entire life up to this point... everything i am happy with and would not change... and those parts of which i am not so happy, the parts i wish i could change. if i am able to keep the perspective of how fragile this life is within my mind, then maybe, just maybe, when my time comes, i will be satisfied with how i have lived and would not desire to change as much as i wish i could now.
i apologize for the serious note of which this blog has, but with recent circumstances in my life... i dont want to be the same person i was. maybe if i write it down, then i will be more likely to change and then to keep that change. maybe then, my life will have more meaning. if not to others, then at least to myself.
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