10.28.2008

what i am thinking

how is it that someone can change drastically overnight?  after four years, you would think that you knew that person fairly well.  you would think that you understood how they thought and what they believe in.  if they change that drastically in such a short amount of time, then it kind of makes you wonder exactly how well you knew them in the first place.  were they lying to you that entire time?  were they completely faking it before or are they faking it now?  after a four year relationship, feelings dont just go away like that... or do they?
i have heard that love is blind and i believe that is true.  when you are in love, you do not see that person the way they truly are.  you only see what love allows you to see.  love blinds you to the lesser qualities and distorts your judgment.  it makes the imperfections in that other half seem very minute and completely acceptable.  however, this is a good thing.  if it were not so, then no one would ever fall in love.  no one would ever open themselves and their heart to another.
but the minute that love is stripped away, that is when you truly see that person for who they really are.  when that love is gone and your judgment is no longer clouded, you see that person in a new light.  you may even wonder, "what was i thinking?"  when you get that moment of truth, it is even possible to see the entire world in a different light.
well, that was what i have been thinking about lately.  maybe my interpretation is completely wrong, but o well...  please dont mistake me, i am all for falling in love.  i am just trying to understand everything better.  anyways, have fun!

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